my not so fun christmas

dangnamit!!! it took me forever to open this crap!!!

okey. post christmas and pre-new year entry. incase i wont be able to go online. which is likely to happen.

christmas, wasn't spent in gapo. twas spent in alabang. in my brother's place.
felt pretty crappy. it was the first christmas that didnt feel like christmas at all. i felt crappy. i was moody. i was sleepy. i was cranky from the moment i woke up to the time i went shopping with my mom. it's as if i lost the will to SHOP! and the will to CELEBRATE christmas. the only time i ever felt good, was when we attended mass that got me so mad, because apparently the church of the lady of the abandoned (where we attended mass) had an hour long intermission. different choir sang. it was hell!!! the fact the it was an hour long and it was damn hot, damn noisy and damn crowded made it hell for me. i'm a bit claustrophobic, and a neat freak. i hate stinky places and i sure don't want noisy places. it's a church dammit! YOU DON'T GO TO CHURCH TO DATE AND TALK AND LAUGH AS IF YOU'RE ON THE SIDEWALK EATING FISHBALL WITH YOUR BUDDIES!!! YOU GO TO CHURCH TO PRAY!!!! and one thing that made me cranky that night, was the fact that i hadn't eaten for hours and was sleepy. and the damn mass aint gonna start for an hour.

so, after the mass we walked back to the house, and i slept. woke up at around 11:45 due to insistent beeping of my cellphone, greeting me merry christmas. i am this close in replying whats merry about christmas? but then decided not to. then continue reading a very depressing yet very very interesting book. NO ONE HERE GETS OUT ALIVE, a bio of jim morrison. the lizard king. IF YOU DON'T KNOW JIM MORRISON, THEN YOU'RE A FUCKING IDIOT!!! finished it that night. and ate some, then texted what i felt to people, then decided to call it a night and hope that my mood will change tomorrow.

and christmas day came. christmas breakfast and lunch at my aunts place in tondo. pretty cool. pretty cool. pretty laid back. and then it's off to the mall again. bought 2 pants. a pair of shoe. that's it.

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pre new year.

now.

my ass is forever glued to my bed and my eyes fixated... staring at the t.v. why oh why you ask?

because my dad has been drowning me with dvds of my favorite series. dr. house, csi, csi:ny csi:miami, prisonbreak, supernatural name it i have it. tomorrow, is another dvd shopping day. hope to find old movies. so obsess with oldies now. so consumed with 60's 70's acid rock and old school rock. the doors cd, which i totally love and am dying to listen to, i am listening to right now!!! so lucky my dad loves the doors! he managed to salvage their album!!!! also consumed with the punk rock, heavy metal and old school rock of the 80's and early 90's. my dad, again. saved the day. for he has in his extensive collection of records, cds of the queen, the extreme and alot more. if i find a cd of twisted sister in quiapo, i swear, i will go to mass there and kiss the poon. but damn that cherry pie song!!! ahahaha

whatever.

you won't understand this entry, if you don't love the music of 60's - 90's.

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OLD SCHOOL STILL ROCKS!!!!

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IF THERE IS ONE THING THAT I AM SURE TO INHERIT FROM MY DAD, IT'S HIS BOOKS AND CD COLLECTION.

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looking forward to a new year.

GINAYA KO SI MIO

BECAUSE ITS CHRISTMAS AND THE YEAR IS ENDING

IM GIVING YOU THE OPPORTUNITY TO ASK ME ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN.

ACTUALLY PAKULO NI MIO TO PERO, KERI NA RIN...
ITO...

IF YOU COULD ASK ME, ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN, WOULD YOU ASK ME? AND WHAT WOULD YOU ASK?

NOW THIS IS YOU CHANCE...

ASK ME FIVE QUESTIONS NO MATTER HOW PERSONAL, HOW LAME OR HOW SERIOUS YOUR QUESTION... ILL ANSWER THEM. AS HONESTLY AND AS SERIOUS AS I CAN.

SO ASK NOW!!!

IN RETURN, I'LL ASK YOU JUST ONE QUESTION. AND ASNWER IT AS HONESTLY AS POSSIBLE TO.

SERYOSO TO!!! SASAGUTIN KO TALAGA!! PROMISE!!

helga and arnold

helga and arnold.


i know a couple.

helga and arnold, they're like that.
he'll never like-her-like-her and yet she adores him
she knows she'll lose everything if he ever find out ,
and yet his cool about it.
he always sees the good things in her, despite her being so nasty
he's totally oblivious to the fact that she likes him
while others she sees falling.
he's nice and friendly, while she's his complete opposite.
they're like HELGA AND ARNOLD.
he
and
she

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i was once on this curse, of being helga.

but unlike helga, i wont revolve my world around you
my heart wont stop beating because of you.
i am my own woman before i even met you
i am complete.

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and to my biatch, keep telling yourself this:

i wont swoon when you're around
i wont miss you when not found.

it makes life easier if you keep this mantra.

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to my arnold....

don't come back just yet.

i dont need my heart to be broken again.
im still healing it
nursing it back to health.

to my future arnold... (if he ever come this early, a fair warning)

i wont chain my heart to you just yet.
i dont need my heart to be broken again
im still healing it
nursing it back to health

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"I wonder if helga ended up with arnold, and arnold outgrew his football head?"

christmas prevents me from being a bitch

christmas is just around the corner so im giving away hints on what i really want:

hehehe... HINT HINT PLEASE!! LET SANTA CHANCE UPON MY BLOG AND READ THIS POST!!

ME WANT:

Espadrilles... i dont know why, but suddenly im into espadrilles...
or Gladiator sandals!!! so-so hot!!!


well... books of course!

shanghai baby, memories of my melancholy whores, in praise of stepmother, life according to garp, virgin suicides, me talk pretty one day, lovely bones, bergdorf blondes, of love and other demons, love in the time of cholera, a walk to remember... i could go on and on and on....

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last saturday, dec. 7 (correct me if im wrong), mai, aji, pam, jas, lee and i took pictures all over ust. we didn't care about people staring at us, we didn't care about the program going on in our background. all we want are memories of our time in uste.

we took pictures at the famous Quadricentennial park ( this park used to be Colayco park), beside the 30 million peso fountain, at the san miguel food shop, where we ate dinner, inside and infront the main building, at benavides park at the fountain of wisdom, and at the arc of the centuries...

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on dec. 27 - 28. my classmates/barkada is coming in my hometown Olongapo to partee!!!!

WOHOO!!!

all systems go for, issai, mai, aji, pam, and saisho...

i still don't know about lee, jas, maki, macy, kish and peter.

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i don't know what it is, but christmas season makes me all nice.

on the verdict

shortly after i finished typing my thoughts on this blog yesterday, i recieved a text message from my mother telling me that, daniel smith was convicted with 40 years imprisonment and the other 3 were acquitted.

blah!!!

i think the only reason that smith was convicted is to please the people who supported nicole and believed she was "raped." and the other 3 was just an "accesory" to the crime.

im sorry if i come too cold for this case, im usually emphatic about situations such as maltreatment of women and children, but this just got me crapped-up! i mean, look at the way she was "raped", where did she got hitched? in neptune club. in a club, a club where socializing is sex itself. and yeah, she's drunk. come on, i've been drunk before, but when some one threatens my well-being, my woman-senses starts tingling, and i'm snapped back to reality.

and even the doctor said, she found minimal bruising and other whatnots to classify her AS a raped victim.

bleh... enough of this... im beginning to be more critical and less of a woman if i keep on siding to the americans. says my friends.

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now i am irritated. before 'twas okay for me to have no classes, but ton have no classes unannounced! that ticks me off.

i am now having a six-day weekend. wherein my school days are shorter than my weekends.

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dude, hurry up i'm hungry.

lulling the time away

well, i am again early for class. and wasting my time away here in the lib, using the internet which i paid for inclusive of my tuition fee. bleh! i wish i could get a refund, so i could buy stuff i want, like that bergdorf blondes book by plum sykes that's been begging me to buy her. everytime i walk into national bookstore or fullybooked and i see her... GAWD! i wanna rip someone's pocket and get their money! not only that book, i have my eyes on the lord of the flies, haruki murakami's books, of love and other demons and memories of my melancholy whores.... i swear if i won like 100,000 pesos on eat bulaga, i'll buy those books first and then give the rest to my family.

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21 days to go, before the great christmas festivities! i still don't have any money. actually no one in my family have money. so much for surviving. no gift yet for my monito. yeah, i picked a guy. i wanted a girl but damn those papers, they won't budge... it's less complicated and less brainwrecking if i've picked a girl.. i'll just give her a mud pack, face pack and peppermint foot soak and that's it. done. she's happy. but a guy? what would i give?

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today the makati rtc will announce the verdict of the subic rape case. coming from olongapo and knowing the circumstances and the places they've said. i'm pretty sure she (meaning nicole) wasn't raped. come on! where did they picked her up again? neptune club? it's like the pegasus of olongapo. no self-respecting lady would be caught dead partying there. that's why some olongapeños aren't too keen on commenting on that case or even bothering to watch whatever happens.

but you know, whatever the verdict maybe, i wish them all good luck. i don't really care about them....

all i want is for the philippines to finally forget that olongapo was once a red light district. that's it.

bow

things to do before death 2

2nd part

+ see the angkor wat
+ eat a live octopus
+ cross the valley of the kings in an atv
+ fight a crocodile
+ learn french
+ eat an authentic sicilian pizza!
+ party at trinidad! trig-to-the-bone!
+ star in a horror flick with johnny depp
+ give britney some knickers (for our sake!)
+ watch a hump back whale
+ tour egypt
+ be a backpacker in australia
+ do capoiera
+ tour france following the trail of Da Vinci
+ have an indiana jones adventure
+ have a peppermint spa treatment in hershey spa in hershey, pennsylvania
+ own a Van Gogh painting
+ make salt in trapani, sicily
+ harvest a mushroom
+ witness the cherry blossoms bloom
+ ride the highest ferris wheel in paris
+ picnic in yellow grove
+ hunt like a kodiak bear
+ bob sled in antartica

... more to come

things to do before death

+ climb mt. apo
+ pass out drunk
+ ride space mountain 20 consecutive times
+ have my picture taken with pope benedict
+ go bald/shave my head
+ swim with the sharks
+ get a tattoo on my back
+ skydive
+ rapel the petronas tower
+ open the Victoria Secret fashion show
+ star in my own music video
+ watch a concert in Parthenon
+ freedive
+ surf in anilao
+ race at nascar
+ sleep in gold bars
+ kayak the amazon river
+ ski in the alps/himalayas
+ have the enlightenment of buddha
+ win something
+ go on an african safari
+ dub
+ trail the aztec temples
+ pass the sahara desert
+ swim at lake tahoe
+ see ol' faithful (geyser)
+ play with a panda
+ swim with the turtles in acl
+ observe an emperor penguin
+ trail a whale
+ watch the great savannah race
+ tour the louvre

.... more to come

random quizzes

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i told myself earlier will not dabble into the fact that UST played us like a yo-yo. Classes - no classes - classes - no classes!!! wtf?!

i send messages singing Laban o Bawi to my classmates. ahahaha..

okey enough.

will update more later