the perils of loving a friend

im not in the mood to talk right now. im online but my ym is in invi. im dead tired from the travels and waiting for the fucking toga. never get to spend the day with my friends, jas was on the job, pam's on her mansion. the rest was in their own endeavors. was pissed off earlier. really pissed off by the site of shitsheads. i really wanna kick their fucking arses off! shit. word diarrhea. gonna gargle me some milk....

now, well spent the day with this guy Juan Carlo or should i say spent almost all the day with him. as usual, was teasing him to mads and maje. semi teased him to danna, when we saw her walking towards the ab bldg. from what i've gathered, they're really avoiding each other. from all the same reasons. the heart.

wow. i've down that nasty road before, and it never did me any good. it fucked me up actually. it ruined a pretty darn friendship. it ruined 5 years of unadulterated fun friendship. before the bull started, i thought it really is possible for a guy and a girl to best friends without the malice. but alas! all good things must come to an end. on my end of the rope, i fell in love with him... its actually hard not to. being there with you 24/7. knowing your bad and good side. accepted you through the best and the worst stages of your lives. who can top that?! besides they don't spill, they're not melodramatic, they tell you the whole truth and nothing but! and more! they're a great movie company, well for me. i never liked romance-comedy shits im more of an action-comedy or thriller or suspense even horror! (so the date where you take me to a horror movie and when i get scared i suddenly grab a hold of you, aint gonna happen...)

anyway, that pretty much what happened to me, as far as i know, he liked me too, but got scared, we tried to save the friendship by putting it on the DL but, sad to say, it didn't work. i don't work that way. well it's a less dramatic to what happened between them. well not my problem.

whatever. im not really nosy.

grad is on monday.

holy monday. God Bless us ALL!!!




currently im looking for a good haircut for my hair and a uploading a song and watching jumong on dvd.

this is how mundane my life. still without a job and still not looking. greeeeaaaattttt... but dont worry, i'll find a job sooner than you think. whatever. i'm really running out of things to say and do. my dad had issued a gag order on me, so i won't be able to give you the details and random chorvas that's been happening here in gapo, specifically gapo politics. which is so much juicier than a hollywood-paris hilton-scandal. uuuuuuhhhhh....



more and more im seeing myself being my dad. i think i will be just like my dad when i grew a little older. actually i am like my dad, only he's more cynical, more sarcastic and less critical.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh im freaking bored!!



its so tiring the way politicians use the usual drama in order to get publicity. as we all know, chavit singson used the hostage taking earlier to "persuade" us, pinoy voters to consider him, as a senator of this forsaken country. our one vote. should we bestow upon him the power and honor of being one of the senate leader of this country?

can anyone answer me?

are we to be fooled again by this masquerade of sorts? or are we to learn the difference between reel life to real life?

i really symphatized with the kids, but the way i saw them, waving and flailing their arms, and smiling at the people... well i couldn't really blame them, i mean hey, they knew the guy, according to the people, he's a genuine all around st. nick, who just got frustrated with the way things are going in this country. i think if i ever get that hopelessness in me, i might hostage someone or better yet kill someone. (its a joke)

oh yeah i forgot! another way for jay leno to bash us into fucking pieces! hell yeah!!! the Philippines suck!! kudos to jay leno!!!

right! i'll kick his cone shaped face if i get the chance! yeah the Philippines is next in line to destruction, yeah, we're rotten, yeah we're corrupt, but we don't need your synical criticism and satirical humour to humiliate us over and over again...

oh i nearly forgot, the kids are in peril and the uzis in the background were smiling to the camera, waving their hands as if they're enjoying a nice shooting of another robin padilla movie...
instead of praying, you're all there enjoying the show....



random chorvits

last night was the first time since mara clara did i ever watch a teleserye on the Kapamilya channel. and it was Maging Sino Ka Man. im not particular about the story but i was so moved by Bea Alonzo's acting that i stayed and watched the damn show. being a theater actress i felt the intensity of her pain and love towards John Lloyds character. i can surely say that she loves him so much. in tagalog: "shet! ang galing! grabe ang pagganap!" and i can safely say that Bea Alonzo is the greatest actress in philippine showbiz. no one in her age had delivered so much intensity and emotion within a line. and i am now a firm believer of the talent and the actress that is Bea Alonzo.
cutting my hair is the next step. after the grad i will surely cut my hair. short and choppy. the one in the avp of creamsilk the blue one, her short hair, i believe that's called the vidal sasson cut, shot and bobby at the back, long and slinky at the front. but i'll add a side bangs to it.
fave photos during the baccalaureate.
because i believe that a picture best describes the emotions captured by the camera. i can never smile the same smile i did during that day, for that day is one of a kind. you may look the same but the feeling is different. that is how a smile is differed from one another.



baccalaureate images.

yoji texted me earlier asking when am i gonna start looking for a job. seriously looking for a job. i told her after holy week. i plan to spend my last decent holy week with the family in time with my celebration as a college graduate. so im not gonna bore you with the tales of my escapades of finding work, taking a test, and being interviewed. you need not know the boring and tiresome day of a jobseeker.

anyways the photos above are just some of the photos i took during the baccalaureate mass at ust, last march 23, i think i did a pretty good job of capturing the essence of being a thomasian graduate. i'll surely miss UST. i've never been this attached to my other Alma Mater but this one is the shit. i actually LIVE.BREATH. UST. i spent more days and nights inside the campus rather than at home. and i am PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM A THOMASIAN!

though the exit to tha arch of the century was rather anti-climatic because of the fact that for every stinking night, we exited that same arch. wanna see the arch well here it is:


where many great Filipino thinkers, diplomats, heroes and martyrs passed. not to forget the shitheads and crazy peeps like us!



a weed is technically a useless plant. it does not add to the beautification of the garden, it prevents flowers from blooming, it takes up useful space in the field.

a person can be a weed to. useless, taking up space and he can prevent you from blossoming.

i recently weeded out friends again. unlike issai, im not the type who'd rather suffer or should i say be a martyr for the rest of my life being friends with a person just because we spent like a year being friends. i am sentimental mind you, but if all those time, that so-called friend kept dragging and dragging me to the abyss and there are more cons rather pros in our relationship, its not worth it... a year or maybe a month of friendship is enough for me, but to continue being friends with that kind of person, its a nightmare!

a friend is someone who makes you feel you. who share laughter and pain but will continue being there with you. be contented with who you are, having afeeling that your a kid and no matter how gross or stupid you look, you know you're still accepted and loved. that is a friend.

not a person worrying about if i look good so we could complement each other. talking about totally nonsensical things, about shits and stuff. i like talking about nonsensical things but not to the extent that, that's the deepest we can ever converse. that is shit and lame.

and weeding out friends is a healthy exercise. i may not have a lot of friends but i have a tight social circle that i can goof off, laugh, be loud and insane and still feel accepted.

i'd rather have a few close and trusted friends than having a lot of superficial friends.


politiks. lee. leave.

philippine politics is really unnerving. i just heard on the news that the unity party (the admin party) was having qualms about their campaign budget, the unfair and unjust division of budget for each candidate is irking Cesar Montano and the other one. (forgive me for i forgot your name, i have yet to know the whole unity line-up, for up until now i am not sure who will fill the remaining 9 slots on my ballot)

how can we expect a good governance and organized senate if in this senatorial campaign where we scrutinize who could lead us to the future are having political dispute over a budget?? huh?


my good friend lee also known as remus kakashi is having a problem, (i dunno if its a she or a he, but most definitely a fe-male) because a dumbass is sending out derogative and destructing messages to lee's friends stating that he is in fact a "professional gay prostitute" wtf?! as if!!! lee? a gay prostitute? lee a prostitute? lee a professional sexer? whattafuck?!

we know lee better than this jiss-shit so we wont believe it.


i'll be in baguio tomorrow till the 21st then i'll be in manila in the 23rd till the 24th. si i think i wont be back here till sunday. 25th.




POP! goes my Heart!!

i said wasnt gonna lose my head,
but then POP!
goes my heart
pop! goes my heart!!

was so elated everytime i see the video of this song on MTV. its one of the song from the movie Music and Lyrics, which i havent even watched yet. the video is so funny, i tried to capture it but managed to take only 28 pictures.
the video shows the POP group singing POP! Goes my Heart. showcasing Hugh Grant looking as an 80's pop idol complete with the mullet and the eighties get up!!! ahahaha!!! even the theme of the whole video!


i recently got my hair straightened but after much thinking i realized that i wont be able to go to the beach because my hair would get very dry and unmanageable when i set off to the beach and swim. then i said to myself! to hell with my hair! i wont let it crap up my summer! after graduation im not gonna care anymore! im going to the beach, swim and party!


matsumoto overload

yes. you read it matsumoto. being a bum right, has opened new doors for me... for now, i am not only addicted to koreanovelas, i love jaedorama!!!

sawada! sawada! wah! im in love!!!


i now have a new project on my hands... its being a wedding planner!! since i find a certain thrill and organization gets my adrenaline pumping, my cousin wants me to be her wedding planner! aha!!! creativity hear me now! for i will suck you all!!! ahahaha!!

im serious. i really considered being an event organizer before, the want of everything organized and arranged... so me. it fits my o.c. personality.

im also a part-time psychiatrist and love doctor to my friends... so basically im a shityard. people throw shits at me and i give them flowers... i analyze people. actually my favorite hobby is people watching. i like observing people, making up stories in my head... its fun.. a little weird but fun.

to tell you honestly these are the careers i seriously thought of pursuing:

a.) child psychiatrist
b.) pastry chef
c.) genetic engineer
d.) event organizer/planner
e.) lawyer
f.) criminal profiler
g.) forensic pathologist
h.) archaelogist

im dead serious about this career, but for now i have to settle for being a part-time psychologist and one time wedding planner


welcome to my dinner

im totally milking this only child shit here. since my sibs aren't here yet, i am lavishing away with the food and company of my parents... ahahaha!!

tonight we go fiesta in la mexicana!!!
my dad bought me this huge taco, when i say huge i mean huge!! its equal to like 3 tacos, and as much as i would like to finish it i really can't. mi estomago es full!! ahaha!! i forgot the spanish for full. Well, my mom finished it off for me.

The parentals are having this late night craving since they started watching jumong on dvd. The last time I was here, they were eating cookies, then biscuits, then sweet corn. I was away for a week and when I cam eback, they’re still pigging out, last last night it was papaya, last night it was ice cream, now its corn again!! Since the day I announced im graduating, they’ve been pseudo-celebrating. Especially mi papi! he's so happy!! the ANDRADE CURSE is over BABY!! WAY OVER!!!


guys stop believing in shits like, graduating students should nnot go party because we're closer to death shit! its not real... stop believing in this shit and start trusting God!

off to baguio!!!
and welcome the beach!


tv bum talking: laguna beach season 3

i am currently addicted to LAGUNA BEACH right now. ah! the perils of teenage romance and the losing battle of virginity and chastity. the drama, the shoes, the cat fights! so intense. i like watching these kids. technically they are still kids compared to me.

the characters in this season are way better than the first 2 seasons...

the protagonist and the all american nice girl


the reigning queen bee of LB


uber hottie and serious... the others are all for chase and cameron well i love kelan!!!!

the rest of the crew is cami, lexi, breanna, chase, cameron, and rocky

photos courtesy of justjared


grad is on its way!!! no one! nothing! can stop us now!! happy grad to you my beloved seniors!!


i know that you! SENIOR JUAN CARLO CARLOS is reading this entry!! hi!!! and you better give me copies of our photos okey?


finally realized its a losing battle with you. and you win. by a landslide. you win...


in limbo again

im still thinking... am i ready for the big world or am i gonna study again?

i really want to study again. culinary arts.


now i tell you, being stuck in gapo being a total bum is better than being stuck here in manila waiting for things to do, waiting for your barkada to call or text and waiting for gimik to arrive... with no money... its next to impossible.


was reading my past entries on my lj and i came across this line

"sana bago mo maisip na pinapalaya mo na ako, nakaalis na ako, baka kasi pag bigla mong maisip na ganon na ang ginagawa mo, baka humigpit nanaman ang hawak mo... baka hindi nanaman ako makabitiw sayo..."

i wrote this a month ago... and finally i'm free!! ahahaha!!!!


for theack of thingsto do here in manila, im spending more and more time in the ustlib. hassling on the free internet and cooling myself with the aircon. hay, i miss my student days


useless popculture trivias

yeah... i post updates almost everyday now, because of:
a.) lack of things to do
b.) lack of things to do
c.) lack of things to do

contrary to popular belief, vacation is tiring, you do nothing. NOTHING. maybe a little something something but, yes still nothing. you sleep. you eat. you watch tv. you eat again. sleep again. the cycle goes on and on and on. and on. so i started blogging again.

and with lack of things to do, i started analyzing movies again. and collecting the most useless popculture trivia known to man. here's an example...

did you know that mcdonald's in saudi arabia represents the whole super size me movie. you have seen a biggie fries on wendy's right? well imagine it a little bigger, that's the REGULAR SIZE of mcdonald's fries in Saudi Arabia.

cool right? whatever. i told you its useless...


the oldest biatch in the book and the greek tragedy

was watching troy just now, and my gawd! i know who the oldest bitch is. according to the movie, Helen had eloped with Paris and went to Troy. Hence Agammemnon with the rest of the greek army went to Troy to "rescue" helen.

and when the part came when Hector's facing off with Achilles, she just stood there. watching. she could've volunteered and go back to her husband (though old), and stopped the goddamn war!! but nooo.... she stayed there. that biatch sure is going to Hades.

i hate her. the whole trojan-greek suffering should have been prevented if she just stuck by her own man!!

hector would have seen his baby grow up
odysseus wouldn't have left penelope for an additional 10 years!
the greeks wouldn't get lost in the sea
the gods and goddesses wouldn't have fought.
the great trojan massacre would not have happened

well, helen is really not to blame if we based it on homer's account, its really the biatchgoddess herself eros. who, was so scorned for not being invited unleashed a golden apple. yadda, yadda, yadda...

but we must remember, without these circumstances, we will not have the odyssey, or antigone. the greek tragedy is in my opinion the greatest epic ever told, even greater than the mahabharatha. i praise homer's literary soul up there! praise the greeks for their cunning intelligence!! bless plato! bless socrates!! bless these men whose brains God himself blessed!!!


summer is here!!!

summer is on!!

get your suntan and bikinis and lets dance to the sunlight and feel the breeze of the hot summer wind!! im so excited coz its summer and i dont even know why... maybe its the heat. and the opportunity that i'll get some color on my cheeks! ahaha!!


just spent the day at the salon... gawd! i never knew that looking good would really take 3 1/2 hours of your life. its my first time in 2 years so i was kinda nervous about the whole thing, plus i went there alone.

i forgot how the salon smelled like. well anyways, you'll see me soon enough.
ciao' babelle!


Kalye Fiesta!

summer is sizzling here in gapo!!! tomorrow till saturday night!! its called Kalye Fiesta! whatever.. if i can't find anything to do, i'll go and do people watch. my new hobby... people watching...



the end is near, well atleast for us seniors. i will surely miss the people who made my college fucked up and happy at the same time. for these people i owe you 1/4 of my life, you taught me to love more and hate less, to give in, to laugh at times when the world seemed to let go of my hand, to simply embrace life and every second of it. college is not like high school, its not carefree and lucky, its about love and and sacrifices. (at least that's how i viewed my college life.) there are no second chances or third chances after college, it is the end of my epic adventure, my crusade, my saga.

issai - i will forever be indebted to you, as you are the sister, daughter, mother, friend, cousin, aunt i never had. you opened up your life and family to me whenever i am alone. for that i love you.

maki - all those days when we felt like we were dead men walking was over when we found each other, the trust and the love will always be here with me. forever

yoj - i never guessed that we would actually be friends. thank for considering me your best friend in college. thank you for the love and support and the nega vibe that totally comes in handy.

sho - being friends with you is like being friends with the wind, cool carefree and light. we never shared a serious moment together yet i feel that i could always turn to you whenever i need you, i just need to know the time, because otherwise you're so obsessed with yourself you wont even know im there.

jas - the person i have the greatest link with. we almost almost have everything in common, from our like to dislikes to crushes and favorite movies. i always tell issai your cool, and just like me, only im harsher.

pam - the second vainest i met(sho's the first), im usually irritated with girls like you, but somehow, somewhere i connected with you, i never minded the nasal voice nor the retouches, i think, i learned to accept the fact that some people are like you and i can never change that. you humbled me.

aji - we were never that close, and you know it, yet you told me the biggest secret of your life. and i appreciated that. i never thought that you regarded me as someone that is willing to cope with it, even though you know im a h_______

mai - your spoiled little brat crudeness has always irritated me, and i got tired of it. and yet i am, still there, with you. i guessed you made me a bit more patient.

em-jeff - the nicest girl i've ever met, if i were thrown into the pit that is your world, i would have cursed and killed everybody, but you, you, remained calm, you were serene, you never ever became mad at anyone for more than a minute. i admire you.

you - you're special and you dont even know it. you are loved and you dont have any clue.