anything murky is not good

earlier yesterday, there was still no announcement from PGMA to suspend classes for today. but the positive thinker that i am refused to lose hope and even at the latest hour of the night tuned in to watch the news. though, it's nearly 10 or 11 in think, when the power went back)

i was in the brink of dozing off when i heard my message alert tone. i recieved a text from macy, saying that there will be no classes for today. (people my p.c. clock, is late) i woke my parents up and told them the good news! they refuse to believe it, until we finally watched the late night news and there it was, first on the list of class suspension was METRO MANILA. glorious!

and enjoyed the rest of the evening, recieving good news of no classes up until 2 a.m. while watching reruns on disney channel.

and today. my most disgusting experience ever, i had to walk in the flood. can you imagine me getting anywhere near a murky puddle. no. and i had to go, i've been holding it for an hour and my kidneys are about to explode, i can't take it no longer and pfft. while screaming for feeling something gracing my legs and absolutely seeing nothing in the water, i scrambled for the door of my tita's house and quickly ran up teh stairs and relieved my self.

and scrubbed myself twice. since then i've never been downstairs again.

yehey!! we won! 2 - 1 na!!!

kudos to the UST GROWLING TIGERS! for the splendid display of footwork and amazing ability to score!! i must say, winning against the FEU Tamaraws really made a victory boost for the tigers... if they play that well every single game, we may have a chance for a UAAP Basketball Title. i wish. but im really positive about the games. i am ready to give my utmost support for the tigers now, unlike my first three years in college where the only support i gave was to the salinggawi dance troupe and the girls volleyball team.

now, i think i'm opening my heart for the basketball team.

ababou was not shining as he was predicted to be, instead it was another rookie jervy cruz, who was delivering the points to uste.... anyhow, i am still waiting for ababou to shine.

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tomorrow is the biggest, most splendid, fantastical, fanatical, outrageous, stupendious, marvelous, amazing, extreme, diabolical fictional show on EARTH !!!!

watch out! PRESIDENT GMA WILL GIVE HER STATE OF THE NATION ADDRESS!!!!!

be prepared to be attacked by your seasonal diabetes, for this will be the sweetest, most sugar-coated words you'll ever hear!!!!

insulin intake is a must tomorrow!!!

stock up on your charantia!!! hahaha!!

animal planet volunteer

i've been a slave here. because my mom was sick, so i was the one who cleans, and cook. i even laundered my own clothes and later i'd iron them out. been through a lot of mess lately. still feeling sad from within. when it rains it really pours. that's life in the PHILIPPINES.

prelims are comin' soon. im glad that we'll only have 3-4 written exams tops.

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i finally told my parents my plan after graduation. a lot of my friends have known that im really an animal lover. so i decided to be part of the wwf and animal planet team. they were looking for 6 volunteers to help them save and protect endangered species all over the world in a span of i think 2-4 months. i signed up for that, but, i declined because i need to finish my studies. after grad, i would surely grab the oppurtunity. i'd be on the 2nd batch of volunteer. imagine, i'd get a free trip around the world and save endangered animals! talk about hitting two birds with one stone.

i'm really serious about animal welfare, eventhough im not a vegetarian. but i hate leather and fur anything. i tried being a veggie-head, but i just couldn't live yet, without beef or fish. i can live without pork or chicken, i'm a meat eating girl. besides i don't have to be a vegetarian to save animals, it's not really a requirement, what's important is, i really care about animals and i really do love to help and save them.

maybe i'd be a veggi-head, in the future, but not now, i need my protein and carbs to work. or else.

i've been meaning to go to malaysia to help the turtle habitat there. if only we have the money to go there, i would really take the next flight and go there.

oh well, i'll just wait for my time to serve mother nature. i'm sure, the wait would be greatly compensated!

..... duh....

i feel that this year is cursed. it's so weird and so hot. too much angst, too much hatred, too much disgust. this year is supposed to be the year we connected, we should've read each other very well, we should've atleast master the pattern of how we think, how each of us, gets affected by what others say or do... we should've been the bestest of friends by now.

instead we go our separate ways, bashing each other directly or indirectly, politicizing everything and anything that we notice. why can't we all just get along? the four years that we've been together, we should have atleast be kind to one another. i know it' s not easy, dreaming of an utopian land is next to impossible.

sometimes i wonder, whether the writers of PHIL of the FUTURE, actually thought that the future would be peaceful in the year 2109 (i think) when, christmas, new year and every independence day of each country is replaced by one unifying holiday called WORLD UNITY DAY. wouldn't that be nice?

i'll stop ranting about peace now.... as if anyone cares.

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mommy's sick today, she has a fever. it's this weird weather we're having, earlier it's hot and later in the evening it's raining. now the mayon volcano is close to erupting. lava in the hole!!!

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okey, it's official... i am going to the acquintance party!

you people win.

too much, too late

my final year in college, im suppose to be excited and care free, but sad to say, im a total wreck. everything is too expensive this year, the acquintance, the grad pic, the yearbook, prelims, dorm rent, everything. we suddenly can't afford anything. we have a ton of things to do, and bills to pay. i didn't ask for my allowance this week, i'd rather spend my savings on me rather than burden my parents on where to get my allowance. (hindi na kami makahinga sa higpit ng sinturon...) i heard my mom and dad talking. i knew it. from the start, i knew that studying in ust, will be a big burden to us. i know that we can't afford it, i know. but spoiled ol' me started throwing tantrums and guilt-tripping my dad. i knew it. if i could take back time, i would and enroll in gapo. i knew i shouldn't have continued studying here, with my f.a. on lit... i knew i had to stop. but i didn't.


MOM, DAD,

im so sorry. if it wasn't for me, we wouldn't be in this mess. i am really sorry.
i know my dad is working like a horse for me, i know im a lot of pain. my dad is 55 years old. and is still pushing 60 to work because we can't afford living. just living. he wanted to retire this year, but he can't. he still can't.

sometimes i wonder if i disappear would the world be brighter, would my family be happier??
would this world achieve peace and prosperity?

i have to repay every cent and love and care my mom and dad gave me. even if it means my life.

you know, how i love and treasure my family... i would do anything for them.

i may laugh a lot, joke a lot. but just like robin williams said, "comedians are the saddest people on earth, they maybe laughing outside, but they are crying inside..."

p.s.

those people who read this, don't talk to me or text me about whatever i wrote here, just this day. i don't need your pity or concern. i'd rather laugh with you like nothing is wrong.

i'm narcissistic, who isn't these days?

my cam whoring days are over!!! my cam is broken, it won't start and it won't charge! of all the time that it decided to be broken, it choose today.... when i need it the most.... i swear i believe this is my karma... for all the bad things that i did, this is the payback. i need that camera for our thesis and other interviews. great, now i gotta go really old school, write everything and anything, that was said on paper.

kalayaan 03

been religiously blogging for over 3 days now. hahaha.. if you can call it, religious. been stuck in front of the pc for quite some time now. since i took an internet hiatus for a week that lasted for nearly two weeks i think....

i recieved an email update from my high school yahoo groups, and i saw a picture of my school's facade. i love it there, when i saw the picture all the memories rushed in. if i could keep all my memories in a cd, i would and i'd watch it every time. high school truly is the best time of my life. i have friends, enemies, but mostly brothers and sister who'd stick by you for the rest of your life.

we never called it regional science blah blah... rather we called it KALAYAAN. not because it is located in west kalayaan but because it gave us KALAYAAN. it gave us freedom to be oursleves. let our imaginations run wild, we literally let loose. it was in this school, that we bonded, stick together, pour our hearts out, wrecked our brains and numd our soul. you could just imagine us, cramming for every stinking test, and afterwards, laughing out loud for passing it. you could just see us, faces painted with lipstick or smothered in powder, for losing each game of pusoy dos, congregating in one of the "self-proclaimed" unisex c.r., sleeping on our made up bed complete with mattress and giant pillows with a couple of throw pillows, doing our kikay ritual in front of the full length mirror we installed in one of the lockers, and eating... eating like a family in the largest table in the cafeteria. we really are like family. even today, some are in the u.s., or pregnant, or whatever, we never criticize them nor leave them out. we love our family.

yes, there were bad times, cat fights, guy fights, barkada fights, but those things happen. but we never let that fight ruined our family. it happens yes, and it hurt, but it made us stronger, and better persons that you see today.

KALAYAAN made us who we are today. we may be psychos, angels or plain janes but we are all the same, we are family every step of the way.

this post was meant for july 13 not today

yes, im back to being a bloggette. it's been ages since i last blogged. i was busy with my not so social life and not so pretty love life and my very active school life, that i left my blog life. so much for my lovelife. and so-so-social life. well now im back. im determined to give my new blog a new look. im gonna pretty-fy it. but sadly our p.c. was totally destroyed, and the webpages i designed and worked so hard on, was erased! boo-hoo!well now, i have to make do of what i have now... i have to download photoshop again. so now i leave you here with this...

"la dahLia has spoken...."


YOU BETTER LISTEN!

family free.

haven't been able to download photoshop cs on the net. suddenly ran out of net card. been reading alot of blogs lately. and recieved a comment on my lj entry about the recent tornado attack. i find it sarcastically funny though not irritating. i dont expect to be believed or anything because who would have thought? tornado in teh phils? much more in gapo? pretty made up to some but im dead serious about it. i've never been this serious in my entire life. if ever that tornado continued, the house that i've love so much would be reduces to smitherins...

i've been praying this whole week for the souls of the cats actually 2 cats that have been tossed around and are now dead, the souls of the family that died because of the flood, and the peace and safety of the israeli and lebanese people, since israel announced an "all-out war" against the hezbollah...

the family's been able to laugh now, no power interruptions yet, and no hard rainfalls. my brother's sick in manila.

oh well...

haven't been able to download photoshop cs on the net. suddenly ran out of net card. been reading alot of blogs lately. and recieved a comment on my lj entry about the recent tornado attack. i find it sarcastically funny though not irritating. i dont expect to be believed or anything because who would have thought? tornado in teh phils? much more in gapo? pretty made up to some but im dead serious about it. i've never been this serious in my entire life. if ever that tornado continued, the house that i've love so much would be reduces to smitherins...

i've been praying this whole week for the souls of the cats actually 2 cats that have been tossed around and are now dead, the souls of the family that died because of the flood, and the peace and safety of the israeli and lebanese people, since israel announced an "all-out war" against the hezbollah...

the family's been able to laugh now, no power interruptions yet, and no hard rainfalls. my brother's sick in manila.

oh well...